Retreat

We sit falling. Looking at the walls. Hands, small. Roof, arms, wrists, skin. Anything. That is nothing, really. We sit falling. Making movement, creating crimson, on our skin. From our hands that are rub rub rubbing. At arms, wrists, skin. Anything. To stop us from falling. Fear of everything. Everything, and nothing. Fear that soaks … Continue reading →

Play pretend

They told us ‘go play’. So we went play pretend. Counting down the days until we could breathe again, wishing on holographic stars that our holographic minds would be a little less loud, a little more sane. They told us ‘go play’. So we went play pretend. Looking at each other’s pretty pictures that pepper … Continue reading →

Walls of silver knives

When they came, they told me. To build a wall of blades. I strained my eyes and looked at them, with rainbow tears hugging pale cheeks. I picked up the silver, one at a time. And built those things an empire. When they came, they told me. To build a wall of blades. To hold … Continue reading →

My mind’s abuser

It works like clockwork. Every reaction is fixed to a schedule, and that schedule is highlighted carefully in my head on a scale of 1- 10 as to the urgency of my mind’s situation. Every situation I am put in I fix with an explanation that goes right under the problem with curly, pretty lettering, … Continue reading →

Away with the rain

‘away’ I say. ‘away’ This blackest rain doesn’t ever seem to leave my faltering, fluttering heart, caged in the luxury labels you dressed me in. These are only for the special, these dark leather tags. ‘away’ I say ‘away’ Please. I will stay wide awake, the capacity of my irises filling up with the screaming … Continue reading →

I saw flowers, upon clouds of bubblegum

I see flowers. Whilst I am descending. Not the polite descending, Where you are being gently lowered to the ground, upon clouds of bubblegum. I am descending. Into my own cried up storm. Into velvety pain that has already been worn. But this pain was worth hundreds of dollars. It is your highest designer, And … Continue reading →