I really have not spoken about my life for quite a while. Which is very odd, because these last few months have been very important and influential ones, and usually the things with importance are the things I tend to write about. As I said, these last few months have been crazily hectic. Preparations for the future are (hopefully) well away, and the pressure of not succeeding is being piled down and buckled under. However, I feel as if these months have been some very eye-opening ones. Full of some very pretty and important moments.
If you read my post about new year promises, you will know that many of mine were focussed around happiness, my dreams and beating fears. And I like to think that I have made progress. Whilst every day is a battle, as it is for most people. Every day is an opportunity, and I want nothing more in my life than to be happy, inspire others and make others happy. I am taking every day as it comes and working so I can achieve the dreams that I made promises to myself about. And in the meantime I have beaten some really big fears on the way.
Fear is a huge part of my life. And I have come to live with it so closely I know each form like the back of my hand. And to be honest, I do fear fear. I fear that fear will ruin me, that it will ruin my chances of becoming this me that I know I can be. That it will be the one thing that spoils any good I have or could have. Fear is one of the most reckless destroyers. But its recklessness has become something that motivates me. I will not allow myself to live in a box. And I will not let my mind hide in one too. I do not just want to stand on the world, I want to scribble all over it.
As for happiness, inspiration and all things pretty about the world. That is taken a day at a time too. I recently said that happiness was a journey, and not something that should try to be forced. Happiness is a beautiful force derived from within. If you look around beauty is everywhere, and if nothing is making you happy right now, let it be that beauty that makes you happy. Every day is an opportunity. Whether you want to progress on personal goals or just certain aspects of life, you have every day to make a change.
As always, thank you so much for being such a source of wonderful things in my life, you are all amazing beings. So go out and have some fun, as much as we have the beauty of days, we really know when they may end. So appreciate every second of your life, and try to make it the best you can.