I am sick, I guess you can see it, now I have thought to point it out. I am sick, I am not my usual OK. Do you see my pale face? my obvious lack of food and water. Look at me, just look at me. With my chesty cough and puffy water filled eyes.Take a look, for I am sick. Why can you not see?Look at all these used tissues, hear my snivelling nose. My face is turning grey now, slowly withering away, disappearing I guess you could say. No. No. You are wrong.Please take a look, look closer at me.I am wearing sloppy clothes, not my usual colour coordinated taste. I don’t care about my appearance today, I usually do, don’t you remember?
My makeup has tear stains running through it like carefully painted lines. Not its usual perfection. My motivation is gone, my body is slumped. I am not smiling, how can you just not see that I am not smiling today?Can’t you see the way I am spluttering, taking a step outside, my heart is racing, look at it beat. Look at it thrumming like a bird in a cage. I guess that’s what this is, I am a bird. I am the cage. Trapped within myself.
One of these days, you will notice. I am telling you. I look far to bad to go unnoticed. Look at the dark circles under my eyes, see that lack of sleep. Look at the way my mouth moves, so perfectly rehearsed as I say my most used words, you know those at least ‘ I feel sick’.I see it now. That familiar recognition on your face, for you have heard those same words again and again before, stuck like that same broken record.
I probably should have kept my mouth shut. They told me rather severely not to discuss these things.
Yes. Yes. I know. You can’t see it. Because I am sick, sick inside.
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Love, Misstery
This was so heartbreaking yet true. People don’t see there’s something wrong unless it’s physical, which is an extremely arrogant ignorance from their side. I love that you wrote about it and hope your fine. ❤❤
Stay strong and keep writing!
(also I just found your blog and love it. I started blogging merely a month and a half ago and would love for you to check it out? Maybe drop in some advice, click like and MAYBE follow? if you deem me worthy, that is. Thanks :))
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Thank you so much lovely! That means the world to me, I am so glad you understand the message behind it. And of course I will check out your blog, hope you are having a great day 💕
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Just followed you 🙂
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Aw thank you so much 🙂
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Hey misstery,
sry for not commenting so Long… I think I missed your 300 follower Party 😛 congratulations, angry bout myself I wasn’t there. hope you do remember me. xoxo love you and your blog
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Ahh that’s fine. Better late than never! And of course I remember you, love you and your blog ❤
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Thanks 🙂 ❤
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That’s ok, great to see you back ❤❤
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Hey! I hope you’re alright now. This post was so great and really well written as always xxx
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Thank you hunny, I am fine. Hope you are too ❤❤
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It’s so true, people don’t realize what you’re going through when you seem perfectly fine on the outside.. Hope things are alright😊
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Thank you. And I am fine, hope you are too! ❤
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I love this post, Misstery – you have a beautiful way of expressing. There is so much strength in it, and a vulnerability that speaks to the heart (well it does to mine, anyway!). Bless you, and have a wonderful weekend. 🙂
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Thank you so so much! I hope you have a wonderful weekend too ❤
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this is so true and really well written, but I hope you’re okay x
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Thank you so much, and I am fine lovely 💕
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okay if you’re absolutely sure 🙂
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I am, thank you for caring lovely. I hope you are well too 💕
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thank you, it’s no problem at all💗
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That was heartbreaking and eye-opening. People never really realise that you’re not okay unless it’s physical – they only notice when something changes about you. It’s awful
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Thank you so much, so glad you liked it elm 💕
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I LOVED it!
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Yayyy ❤❤
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