Hi lovelies! it seems my downpour of emotion has finally come to a close. I think. Well I really hope so. I do apologise for my emotional ramble on my last post. But I think when I write, I want to be as real as I can get. I feel like in this huge world of the internet, there is such a high possibility you start to loose yourself to the idea of being somebody else entirely. To the idea of remaking yourself. Putting yourself out there on the internet is like discovering makeup or plastic surgery. The fact that you can change yourself and the way you are can become addicting, because as people we all have flaws and parts of our own reality that if given the chance too, we would happily erase. And sometimes, the internet offers that chance. So I think if there were any way in which I want to be unique, it is in the way I try to be as real and honest to both you as a reader and myself as I can. That is one of the most important things to me. So sometimes, emotional posts are nessesary. Becuase it brings reality to this Internet world, where becoming something you are not can often make you forget about that. And to me, when I write that is very important.
I think, I have always wanted to have a little bit of freedom. I do not want to just post things about beauty or just post about mental illness, or just post about fashion. I want to post about the real stuff too. I feel like one of the biggest things that allows you to connect with an audience is too be down to earth, and talk about emotions and feelings. It makes you seem more relateable and as a community, so much more supportive. And that is all I want to do. Is be real with you. And not let the tempting chance at an annoymous identity pull me in, like it has to so many other people.
But sometimes I do worry about it, and I am worrying about it right now. Because from the start I have wanted to be a professional blogger, and I feel like when I post like this. Just randomly, short little thoughts or feelings. I always think that I am being unprofessional or boring. Or just doing the same thing as everybody else. And I do not want my blog to be anything like that. I want my blog to be different, but most importantly I want you guys to enjoy what you read. So please do leave a comment down below telling me what your favorite types of posts are, be honest, it would seriously be a great help to me.
So guys, I do have many posts planned. I actually find inspiration for blog posts at the weirdest of times (like in the middle of the night, which is so fun) and I have some more beauty related posts coming up. Unfortunately I am cyrrently having issues with taking pictures, which is every beauty bloggers worst nightmare. But as soon as the issue is resolved, be ready for the beauty blogs.
I have also been going through an awful disease called procrastination. Seriously, I have always been one to procrastinate and waste time. But it has been so bad these last few days it is rediculous. I feel like it gets worse when I am stressed. When I have loads of work to do, it is so much easier just to lie to myself and say that I will do it tomorrow, and I deserve a break. Then tomorrow comes and I tell myself the same thing. Untill I am a messy spiral of lost hope and ambition.
So you all have been lumbered with another chatty post, I am so sorry, I must sound so boring by this point. If you actually read through these thank you, for your patience. Anyway I love to just sit down and talk to you guys. I feel like it just strengethens our community and friendships. And gives me more of a freedom to write. And the freedom to write is one of the best things you could ever ever have. So I intend to keep it that way, no false identities, and no more procrastination problems.
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