I feel like i have been gone for ages. I don’t know. When I don’t blog I find that I am a little bit of a mess. I am a deep thinker, and I use this blogging platform to just write out what I feel and think in a juble of emotion, that apparently a fair few people like to read. Anyway, these past few days I have been very busy ( I know i went outside, this is crazy) and I have found so much to blog about. I feel like when I go outside into this huge brutal world, into society I see so many things. And as a deep thinker I think so many things. And with being busy I have not had enough time to write them down. So i am a little bit of a mess. Being away from blogging seems to have that effect on me.
So I am very sorry if this post is a bit of a mess too. But the last few days I have noticed some things.One of the biggest things being the utter importance of friendship. Ever since I was young never really fit in a friendship group. I think it was becuase I was so different. Even at the age of 6 I looked at the world in a different way. I liked to think about the things that effected others and not just myself. And at that age, when you are seen as different. People just dismiss you, and you don’t fit in.
That is why I think it is so important, to appreciate friendship while you still have it. Because rather like family, it can be taken away in a second. I personally, have a very good friend. They are a friend that I can trust with anything. I can go to them with an issue and I can expect a reply in a second. I can go to them for support. And I can go to them to remind me of who i am, when i have completely lost myself. And those sort of friends are so very hard to find.
You see in movies and books, in this fantasy world we all engrose ourselves into to avoid reality. Friendship is painted like a pretty picture that has no flaws. Friendship is painted to be this thing that everbody will have and everybody will experience. But it isn’t. Freinship is a painting that has had coffee spilt on it. It is never perfect. Becuase we do not live fantasy, we live reality. The friend I am talking about lives far far away from me. They moved a few years ago. The metaphorical coffee spilling in the pretty painting I had carved from my fantasy driven ideal of freindship.
But freindship is such a powerful thing. That you do not let things like distance get in your way. You have to overcome the issues that come along with friendship. Whether that be the mistakes one of you has made, distance, culuture or your background. We have to overcome these things and these differnces. Becuase without friendship, the world would be such a still and pristine place, free from coffee stains that represent happy mistakes and joy filled flaws.
So the last few days, I was able to spend time with that special friend. That friend that would make me laugh when a felt my most miserable. That friend that i could talk to for hours, and not get bored. I got to spend time with that friend. And now, they are gone. They have gone back to their place far far away.
And I think that is what makes me appreciate those moments with my friends more. Those things you overcome. It is the feeling of being alone, and being without them, that makes you realize how truly important freindship is. It is the feeling of being out of place because you are that little bit more unique, it is that feeling. That makes you realize that the friendship is fantasies, is a fantasy for a reason. And the friendship in reality, is the best one you can find.
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