Hello fellow citizens of the internet. I was thinking about my blog the other day and the route I wanted to take with it. When I originally started my blog, I really did not know what direction I wanted my blog to go in. And I still do not know. But I feel like one of the main things my blog is lacking are simple little chit chat posts. I think I have been in this mindset that every post that I write has to be serious. And I have to take lots of my time in making sure they are deatailed and powerful enough to achieve the desired effect that I want on my reader. But through doing this I have lost that sense of community, that was the very reason I started blogging, So I figured why not write a little chit chat post.
So here I am, sitting with a candle lit (shhhhh i have a candle obsession, we all do.) Just writing fresh and unedited. The worst fear I had with posting these little snippets of my life was that it would be boring, and people would not like to read it. I have always aimed on making my writing so detailed, that the first few sentences will grab my readers attention(at least i hope they do!). And I love writing that way. And I will not stop writing that way, because that is my unique style .But I think having a few chatty type of posts will be good for me, it will not restrict what I write as much.
So first off I have a new theme. And I totally was not up all night trying to make every little snippet symmetrical and perfect. No trust me, I was. I think the thing about my blog that I wanted theme wise was more something that represented me. Something with a little class and grace (which I have none of). And I feel like this new theme makes my blog look a bit less scruffy. But I have not completely finished polishing it yet so don’t get too excited. Its still a work in progress in my eyes (shout out to all Connor Franta fans).
As I said earlier over the last few days I have been really thinking about my blog. Really thinking about where I want to go with it. I would love, ever so much to keep blogging and become a successful blogger, but honestly I am not sure if i am good enough to do that. But I am trying my hardest. The effort I am putting into this blog is astonishing, considering my motivation levels are ususually at an all time low. This blog seems to be the only thing that is motivating me right now. Ater having this little blog, after having this little taste at what my future could possibly be, if I was good enough. I have become addicted, to the idea of blogging.
And it just hit me the other day that I have actually made a blog. That I have actually made a blog, it is mine, and people are reading it. Not just people, 85 people, 85 people I have never met before. Yet they are some of the nicest people I have encountered in this world. I know it sounds ridiculous but when I woke up one morning and I made this blog, and I got my first follow (shout out to Rubyscadence.) I never actually believed I was doing it. And I still cannot quite believe that in a month and a bit of blogging I have 85 lovely followers and almost 1000 views. It is kinda scary. Yet so incredibly exciting.
And today as I was taking a walk and blasting twenty one pilots, I was thinking about what I had wanted blogging to do for me when I started, and what it is doing for me now. I had originally wanted a space to air my opinion to the world, and not be afraid. I had originally wanted to beat my fear of change and reach and jump for my dreams. I wanted blogging to be my thing. And it is that, and so much more. From blogging I have found such a loving community. I have found my place, I have found new friends, and I have found a ultimate, never ending source of positivity. And I thank you all so much for being a part of that positivity.
Thank you so much for reading, if you like chatty, rambly posts please do tell me in the comments. As i am not sure whether to carry on with them.
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